A Nightmare That Reminded Me Why I'm Here

A bit of a sensitive warning. 🫶

I dream vividly every night, and most nights I can control them, but this one I really couldn't.

It was a dream I haven't had in a long time. Over the last four years I have been healing and growing spiritually.

I used to suffer from horrible nightmares where I'd experience my abuser physically laying into me, where I couldn't get away.

Healing myself energetically, not just mentally through therapy, was the life changer for me.

Those nightmares became less and less frequent, and I am even able to control them now — where I can get away, or send him away.

And for those who also dream vividly, you know how real these dreams feel.

Well, this morning was different. I woke up in tears, I couldn't stop crying from how real it felt. I couldn't get away this time.

And when I finally looked at my phone, the clock read 4:44.

Which made me remember why I choose to work with the businesses I do.

People like me need healing services that are far deeper than regular talking therapy.

It was also a realisation for me that the inner work I am doing now — 12 weeks of birthing/creation healing work — is really what I need.

Having these emotions come up during this process shows that there is a lot of releasing going on at a level we can't even see.

And that's powerful.

So you know what I did?

I did my healing work. After I let the emotions out and felt into the cry, I held one hand on my heart, one on my belly, and did slow breathwork.

I listened to my body and didn't stop until it felt right. As I was still quite awake, I put on my inner child meditation and reassured 'little me' that I am safe, I am loved.

This morning I went out onto the grass and just laid there — present, grounded — until my headache went away.

I want to say that you are worthy of healing, and that may be deeper than regular therapy. You are loved, and I am glad you're here.

Working with people who provide this deeper level of healing isn't just a niche to me — this healing work saved me, and continues to save me.